aVOIDing Void

There is a certain experiment, which we would have tried in the primary schools. When you hang two slightly heavy balls, from a bar, like one cm apart, and blow air as fast as you can in between the balls, you expect the two balls to go apart. But ironically they two come closer. The faster the air, the closer are the balls. This is because of the effect of vacuum, which is created by fast moving air.

The same can happen to our minds don't you think? (not that I am trying to tell you to hang two brains etc..silly!!), when you have enormous amounts of thoughts flowing though your mind, all at the same time, Vacuum or Void can also happen in the mind I suppose.

Have you ever experienced a moment, where everything seems to go ahead, you are remaining still, you are aware of that fact and desperately want to move ahead, but something keeps you from moving even a single inch? Like you are standing in a darkest desert, where the single light you see moves farther, it becomes dimmer and dimmer and the darkness covers you?
I did experience a moment like that yesterday. Don't really know which triggered that moment, but lot of thoughts came to my mind simultaneously. I felt that I haven't done anything yet; I have wasted schooling, going mechanically without much enjoyment. Did nothing to open up to that beautiful girl, whom I adore so much even today, even though we both ended up in the same school and college. Wasted 5 years after my graduation without doing any post graduation or whatsoever to improve my academic profile, being a bachelor in Bangalore without going to any discotheque or club, no girl friends or even very close friends to be with, currently doing a dumb java job, without much scope in it, Onsite opportunities being bleak, I wonder where am I standing? My past was Nothing, My future seems Nothing, I did nothing, and hence I am nothing. I experienced VOID.

I wonder what someone will do when this happens? Some people will booze to the fullest, some people smoke till the alarm goes of and the fire engine is called (many do both!!). Somehow I don’t want to do either of them, so I went to my room, hoping to divert my mind to any good movie in the TV, but damn... nothing. So I put on my pants and T-shirt, grabbed my mp3 player and felt that I should have a long walk to clear my mind, to empty the emptiness, to avoid the void. After 1.5 Hrs, 4-5 Km of walking with one perfect song for the moment, "Deepest blue - shooting star" (good lyrics and music), and about 30 min of sitting in the balcony, I was able to clear things in my mind, Calm myself, and compose my mood to think about the future. But certainly, that was one of the toughest 2 hours I had to spend. And hey for that final finishing touch... I happen to watch the sentimental movie "Step Mom", perfect ending for my more than perfect day.

RED BLOOD RUSSIA

Another Grave Tragedy involving children, like the one in “kumbakonam” last month, but this is not an accident, deliberately planned and executed terrorist act. More than 400 lives, most of them are children have died, more than 1000 injured, worst kind of attack as far as I know which started as a wave of attacks, first in a bus, two aircrafts collision and now this school attack. Terrorist everywhere are getting more aggressive, cunning and ruthless. Targeting the so called "Soft targets", paralyzing the government’s decision making capability, as these kinds of situations are much sensitive to be handled swiftly.
But when are these terrorist bastards, with no rational thinking capability, going to understand that they are merely puppets in the hands of those masters, who does not give any damn about their cause, theirs and others lives, just merely want to gain more money and power so that they can gain even more with which is already gained. When are they going to understand that people who gave the guns and bombs just look at them as a profitable market? And these powerful underground men will not even let these crises to be settled, as their market will be lost.
Like in the case of recent Indian hostage crisis in Iraq, their demand is for money and the company which employed these guys to be out of their country. Even the "Daffy duck" can understand that this is not related to anything close to "Allah" or "Jihad" or Freedom of their country. They should have been orchestrated by powerful industrial, money and power craved master whose eyes on the building contracts of Iraq’s reconstruction phase. These guys use these 3rd rate fellows to threaten the construction companies and get the contracts for a larger amount.
Ok, you terrorist idiots, your words have been echoed in all the channels across the world, but what would you tell to those loving parents, who sent their only child to school with the hard earned money, in the dream of seeing him come up in life? Haven’t their hopes and dreams are once for all shattered? What will you tell to the mother who had dressed her child only in the morning, but now seeing the body and do not know whether that is her own child? How do you answer to those now shattered and crying children who do not have any idea what's going on and why there are harmed? What the hell you wanted to achieve? you idiotic, dumb, stupid bastards? Don’t you have anything in your god damned head which is capable of thinking? When are you going to understand nothing can be achieved by these kinds of blood bath? Other than a week of media attention with a dumb guy analyzing the history of the crisis only to be forgotten soon.
So these are going to be never ending story, with more and more lives lost without any purpose and reason. Targets are going to be made where they are least expected. As these masters of these crises never going to let down their crave for money and power. But let us pray that these kinds of happenings do not occur in future although it seems to be dim.

Tit!! bits.

I was browsing through the channels on friday night, I stopped at star world channel. And the world famous!!! Best watched!!! Successful running show titled "Baywatch". After long time, I many years (?!!) after I am seeing the show. brought my memory when was in my schooling and college days, where I would watch the show late night with my remote ready in my hand with my finger just in another channel, ready to switch over in case my parents came out of the room, times these were considered taboo, too vulgar and forbidden. Wonder how much it is worth watching, other than the sexual appeal of the show? (I know, I know, what you are asking, "is that not enough"!!) I remember in one of the "friends" show, joe will be watching Baywatch at midnight and chandler will ask, what's in it except babes in most revealing bikinis running around all the time"? and when they watch one of the babes running, he will also sit and watch, and joe will just look at him and grin. So when you have hot babes, sort of sex appeal and any word related to sex in the title, it is enough to run a successful show, unlike the Indian soap-operas where all female counterparts will cry all the time and all the male actors are vicious demons and clever villains doing nothing but bad things to women, hmm.. World is different after all. Now a days these types of programs are taken over by AXN channel with more than half a dozen shows like this (Good for Indian Youth !!!). and one suggestion to the producers of the Baywatch show, why can't they change the title to "Babe Watch"? Won’t it be more appropriate? So as my title justified for this post I think!!!.
This story about a very good, touching film called "I am Sam", Please if you have not watched the film, go get your butt to the next video store and grab a copy of the film and watch or atleast wait for the next retelecast in the HBO and take time to watch. Such a wonderful film. Actually, I am a sort of guy who liked to see kind of hollywood films which has lot of gun powder, bombs and lot of killing, but once in a while, these other types of Hollywood films, which has a good story line, a mild message and a good sentiment also good for your health (doctor recommended?!!!). The kind of films which does not make you weep like Indian mega serials, but will make you feel deep inside your heart in a way you never felt before. This film is about a 8 year old child with a mentally challenged dad who's IQ?!! is of a 7 year old child. Their struggle against the system which separates them from each other. The screenplay was also good with mild comedy which is a tightrope walk for the director. Remembered a similar story where the tamil director took the audience into the mind of mentally retarded child in his one of the best movie "Anjali". Hope these types of movies come from time to time in future.